October and November 2008 If you didn’t notice October and November 2008 were a bit of a bumpy ride. Personally, the energies unglued enough deep lessons in those sixty days for a lifetime. During the tumultuous intensity of those days, I lost track of keeping track of most everything and when I finally came up for air several weeks ago I realized ‘we truly are living through the forest for the trees’ of this transition. Physically, I felt myself being stretched to the physical limits and it came to light that my body is also transforming with the evolution. Do you still have your same body of five years ago? Even of two years ago? Probably not. The Gods and Goddesses in our souls are coming to the surface in our bodies. Lesson wise, it felt like the core, root, deepest lessons of my life were coming up from the depths, waving themselves in my face and letting loose from my soul. I experienced a series of one heart break after another, to the point that I felt my heart cracking open like a walnut and bleeding lifetimes of heartache out my heart chakra. Some days it felt as though the only thing that would or could alleviate the pain was lying chest down on the Earth, my face, my cheek to the dirt and hugging the Great Mother (Bob would say, “Do you need to hug the Earth today??”) It helped as I could feel the energies pulse through me back and forth through the Earth, healing and alleviating the unfinished business of lifetimes. Mary Alyce also delivered some smooth, polished basalt rocks into my life and I carried them around like my security blanket, letting them ground me and soak up the energies. Some nights I’d go to bed with three, four, sometimes five rocks. They’d warm to my body, soothing me through the night and tumble in and around me clicking together along with the cats in the morning. I’d wake asking Bob, where are my rocks?? It became a rhetorical question in the house... ‘where are my rocks??’ Are the energies spontaneously raising the depths of your soul and spontaneously bringing into culmination much of what you have worked on this lifetime and previous lifetimes? Is it occurring at a heightened intensity level? Perceptually, with so much changing within myself and the world around me, I had days and moments of really asking, “What is real? What really is real?” And as my soul let go of things I never thought I could, and I laughed at things I never thought I could, the filter I viewed the world through shifted. It caused me to reconvene my focus in different ways that I cannot describe. Are you looking through the same filter you were even four months ago? Spiritually I felt very alone, although logically I know and knew this not to be true. The aloneness was deep and impermeable. Sometimes as I spoke with others, I found they were also experiencing this sense of aloneness. I think a lot of us felt and feel very alone, even if we have good connections with others. The nature of this consciousness walk, this evolution requires each of us to do it independently of one another, though we are all very connected in one-ness. It requires each of us in the journey and path we are walking to find our way irregardless of others and this is an individual soul journey. Are you feeling alone in an indescribable way? There’s not much we can guarantee to one another these days. But I can guarantee you this: you, I, the planet around us is changing dramatically. December 2008, January 2009, February 2009 and March 2009 As we came into December 2008 I felt a lifting of the heavy duty energies that were purging and pulling us apart at the depths. I’ve felt more breathing room and a more directional flow and strength to the energies. The energies haven’t necessarily let up, but there is a sense that we have a few moments to gather ourselves, assess the shifts we’ve already made prior to the next tumult of energies, national and world events. It’s as though whatever I left of myself behind in October and November (whatever pains and old wounds I let sink into the Earth), that space is now filled with more wholeness and clarity. It’s as though I have new found regions of wholeness in my soul I can now rely upon and stand upon that I used to fear, ignore or hide from. Is this happening for you? Also, in the clearing of this energy, and when we reach reprieve zones like we are in right now, at each clearing I discover we have greater and greater access to stronger and stronger manifestation energies. Pair this with greater numbers of more healed souls and we are now functioning in the more powerful potentials of multi-dimensionality than we ever were before. Are you daily aware of what you are focusing on manifesting? Are you watching, experiencing how much more powerfully and easily we can manifest than we ever were able to? As for looking forward, because of the tumult of October and November 2008, quite frankly, I haven’t wanted to look at 2009. Usually, in my Virgo attuned agenda, I’m already scanning, reading and sensing the ‘what next’ and the ‘what is coming’ feeling of the coming months. Not this time. I was feeling a sense of ‘what the hell does it matter anyway because I’ve already had the snot knocked out of me.’ If it hadn’t been for a handful of unrelated friends mentioning the details of what they’re experiencing and seeing, I think I might have just marked January and February 2009 off the calendar this coming year. And that’s when it occurred to me. I haven’t even wanted to look at January and February 2009. I can look at March 2009, but not the first two months and that’s when I began wondering, why? In a nutshell, the accumulated data from several people outside of myself is pointing in the direction of January and February 2009 being our next set of watershed months. To me, January and February 2009 have the same feeling of October and November 2008. According to Carol Tyrrell (Astrology Interview with Mike Guttman in October 2008 on the Voice Page) the next Saturn/Uranus opposition (that brings so much of what’s underneath in us up and out into the open) is occurring again on February 5, 2009. It’s an alignment that will shed it’s energies through January and February 2009 causing a similar energy experience as we experienced in October and November 2008 (with the Saturn/Uranus opposition of November 4, 2008). Also, I’m hearing from people about ‘bracing’ themselves for the post holiday time. It’s as though we’re all giving ourselves a hiatus for the holidays. We all know ‘something’ is up, whether we’re willing to look at it or not. Come January 2009, we’re going to have to start looking at it again. January 2009 has the feel of some major national and global events occurring, plus the inauguration is on tap and we’re probably looking at the next steps of old energy fall out. On personal levels, given the Saturn/Uranus opposition, we’re probably personally going to be dealing again with our old energy, old wounds and old unfinished business coming up from the depths of our souls. Like I said before, I’d just be happy not looking during those two months but I believe it’s inevitable. Whatever blows through and knocks us for our loops, both on the micro-cosmic and macro-cosmic levels in January and February 2009 leaves us at the doorstep of March 2009. And believe it or not, March feels really great to me. Again, it’s another breathing room and hiatus place of clearer energies, but also energies that are powering through with a lot of light bubbling up from underneath. I suspect with the end of winter coming and the freshness of spring, after we’ve all been knocked silly again for sixty days, a lot of souls are going to start coming out of the woodwork. I sense our first mass rising of people really coming up for air. Coming up for air to ask questions of themselves and their nation; to voice their feelings (and probably anger); to make the first strong motions into a greater consciousness. And although this first wave will look fairly large to us, it will be nothing compared to the Summer of 2009 and the waves of 2010. As I write this, Carly Simon’s song “Let the River Run” is playing through me (totally worth seeking out on ITunes and listening to). We will be living through times of great questioning, great action and great change. It is the time of the great transformation. Always remember during this time, the shedding of the fear, the living through the change, the chaos is for a reason — the reason being the great light at the end of the tunnel into the new energy, the new consciousness, the new time, the new light is here and on its way. Even during my times of lying face down in the dirt and hugging the Earth and asking Spirit “What the hell am I doing here?! I hurt so much. Please let me leave!” I could hear them telling me, “Dana, we’re celebrating with you. This is a joyous time. This is a great time. Feel the joy of this change that is here and coming.” So that’s what I say to you. When or if you are ever in times of great uncertainty, pain or darkness through this transformation, celebrate that the shift is occurring. We are creating great things here and we don’t know it. We’re on our way and it is occurring... “Come, the New Jerusalem... asking for the taking... oh, my heart is aching, we’re coming to the edge, running on the waters, coming through the fog your sons and daughters... stand on a star and blaze a trail of desire through the darkening dawn... Come, the New Jerusalem.” (Carly Simon, “Let the River Run”) Each of Us Are Being Asked Each of us are being asked on deep soul levels if we want to stay during this transition, this transformation or leave the planet. The beauty of this transformation is that we each get this choice as we live on a planet of free will – and we are not judged in the choice. It is not a matter of good or bad, it is only a matter of choice and being. Great numbers of souls are already departing, leaving suddenly, sometimes without rhyme or reason in their deaths. October and November 2009 were the months of my great ask. One beautiful balmy fall day I was driving back to Colorado from Farmington, New Mexico, and in a landscape of desert scenery and openness with mesas and mountains in the background – scenery that I love so much, Spirit said to me, “Dana, you’ve accomplished all you set out to do in this lifetime and more” and with the message came a feeling and sense that I had reached an energetic stage I had hoped for when I first came into this life. It was funny because ‘accomplishment’ that we refer to logically as humans in the tactile sense (of jobs, education, money, ect) is completely different than the unconditional, loving ‘accomplishment’ Spirit energetically and spiritually showed me and that I felt in those moments. I could feel, truly, that I had reached a threshold of energy, a threshold of being and sensing that correlated and matched with a feeling from the other side of the veil – a feeling from the other side of the veil of what I had hoped to do in this lifetime prior to incarnating into this life. Then I was told something that startled me, “If you so choose, you may leave. If you choose to stay, once you start through the transition and the transformation you will not be able to leave even if you want too.” All of this was rather cryptic and confusing to me and I spent several days running it through my filters to discern its truth, its realness. But the energies held in clarity and nothing dark was toying with me. I was truly being given the window of my conscious choice to stay or to leave the planet as so many of us are, whether we or unconscious of it or not. The several people I have told, their first reaction has been, “Of course, you have to stay because you have so much left to do.” And I agree with that. It was my reaction too while I was driving in my truck back home. I thought of the people I am building connections and relationships with. I thought of the Baby Bean that continues to visit me and the hope of a boy for Bob and me. I thought of Bob and living in one of the first healthy relationships of this lifetime. I thought of the unwritten book I have yet to complete. I thought about writing frequently to all of you in these Energy Updates. I thought about the promise of the new energy. I thought about wanting to fly in this Earth bound body, learning how to manage my magnetic field in relationship with the Earth’s magnetic field. I thought about all this and more. But what I rarely let people know and/or write about is that sometimes, quite frankly, it is so fucking painful to be in this body, living this very sensitive life on this frequently insensitive planet that some days I just want to unzip my soul out of this body and fly up into the heavens and be done with it. Some days I wonder how much longer I can go. The more I wake and the more sensitive I become heading into the new energies, the more I feel all the wonderful things, the more I am able to help people and steer them through their landscapes, the more I’m able to help and heal myself. But the more sensitive I become and awake, the more I also feel the pain. I feel the pain of the planet and what we are doing to her, the pain of the people, and the pain of life and living. When Karen James was here for her interview and we were talking off-mic after the interview, I asked her about this and what she learned through her apprenticeship with Stephen Buhner. What she told me had to do with learning how to shield and un-shield at will, as a way of managing higher sensitivity levels in less than conducive environments. But she also said, “Sometimes Dana it’s a matter of not minding the pain.” Karen is right in a lot of regards about not minding the pain because there is a steep cost in shutting down or running away from the pain. In light of this, as I lived through the pain of October and November 2008, I implemented a tool I learned last January 2008. It’s a Buddhist practice that when the pain comes or the fear or the darkness, instead of running away from it or running away from yourself or shutting down, you sit with it (Tibetan Buddhist nun, Pema Chodron talks about this a great deal in her work). And you sit with it, not in a masochistic sense, but in a peaceful, calm, patient, self loving, full presence sense. What I’ve found through this practice, as you sit with it, whatever it is eventually loses its ferocity, its illusionary largeness. So, I did the only thing I knew how through October and November 2008, I just sat with my pain (as it came through off and on) through these two months. I hugged the Earth, I held my rocks and by the end of November, many of the old wounds of my heart were smaller and/or healed. I had let go of so much. Then I interviewed Karen Lovelien and after the interview I spoke with her about the pain. And by then, I was specifically feeling a pain of the sensitivity of living more frequently in the new energies and perceptually feeling/seeing the new time beyond the shift, but then simultaneously having to hold/be that new energy in the bulk of the old energy still around us now. I felt very much like I was living in two times (the new and the old) at the same time and it was disorienting and painful as hell. And she did with me what I tell all of you to do . . . “Run the light, Dana,” she said, “Run the light.” (I hope you’re laughing because it’s ironically hilarious!) Yet, even though it is fundamental information to me and nothing new, I heard and felt something new in the words (and her words that followed) and the energy within and around the words that I hadn’t heard before. Something there reflected new meaning and insight and she helped me understand an aspect I hadn’t considered. She said something to the effects of “It’s important to embody the light and energy of the new time and really anchor it here now on Earth. Be it.” When she said those words to me, she said them in a way of empowerment, not the pain of victim-hood that I’d been living. Energetically, in a moment, I understood I had been holding my sensitivities and the pain of my sensitivities as a pathway of victim-hood. It connected directly back into the trauma I experienced as an infant, and the emotional programming I experienced as a child and adolescent – and I wasn’t conscious of how automatically I was practicing this in my daily life. Since this summer, I’ve come to understand the energies of victim-hood that I’ve carried with me for so long is probably the greatest unconscious mistake, misunderstanding and assumption in my life. Right now its the greatest learning of my life, the greatest coming to consciousness of my life and hopefully eventually the greatest gift of my life. (On a trip driving back from Yellow Jacket, Colorado to Durango with my friend Carol, her stories first brought it all to clarity for me. She was telling me some of her life story and mentioned how somehow, in her youth, she never connected all the traumatic painful things in her life with victim-hood. She did not practice the energies or consciousness of victim-hood. As she told me those stories and held a whole, empowered energy, for the first time I became consciously aware from energetically feeling her, what it means NOT to carry victim-hood through and out of trauma). So, later, when I sat with my pain and bled it out of my heart through October and November--I had let enough of it go so that when Karen spoke, telling me from an empowered perspective how to hold and anchor the light energies, I heard her, I truly heard her and took one more step away from the unconscious victim frame work I’d been living in and moved one step closer to a more whole, healed, empowered energy. So, Karen and I, we went outside that day and stood under the blue sky next to the rock fire ring and I felt the ancient Anasazi gather around us. We ran the light energy of honor on the exterior of the four quadrants of my body, then we ran light through each one of my chakras clearing them, then we ran light up into the Celestials and connected it with the Unity Consciousness Grid. We ran the light back down and through me, filling me with light and sending it out my feet, my legs and spine, deep down into the Earth and anchoring it with the Mother’s core. We sent the light back up and circulated it once more through my energies. And this time I felt how to hold light, even through sensitivity, in a stronger, more empowered way – the light of the new energy. I might be sensitive. You might be sensitive. It might be painful to live here through this time (as we live through our sensitivities coming into more alignment with the new energies as we leave the abrasive and painful old energies), but the more we run and anchor the new energies, the new light in an empowered way, the more we give ourselves the opportunity of living clearly into this new time. I suspect by learning how to sit with the pain, release the victim-hood and run the light I have inherently chosen to stay. I have too much life running through me to leave. What about you? Negative and Positive vs. The Truth (An excerpt from “Elephant in a Pink Tutu” the book I’m writing) Switching gears ENTIRELY, I want to talk about a concept that has been forming itself for the last several months in my conscious (but has probably actually been ruminating in my unconscious for quite some time). The following passage has found its way into the book I’m currently writing (see now, I have to finish the book because I told you) but it’s far to important to hold until publication. It’s like this concept is burning a hole in my pocket like unspent money. The concept has to do with how we perceive and then label, and I’m especially talking here about intrinsic energies, although it can be applied to so much more. “...So, within much of our culture, and the metaphysical community is not immune to this either, we like to apply labels through our human duality using: good and bad, light and dark, negative and positive, ect. In the application of these labels, I frequently see individuals embracing the good, light or positive and shunning the bad, dark or negative. I’m not convinced this is an effective psychic, energetic or Spiritual practice and I call it into question. When we apply labels (like good or bad or positive or negative) without making an effort to learn the truth about the nature of the energy dynamics, then we are losing the opportunity to embrace a greater understanding of ourselves, a person, a situation, an entity, an energy or a thing. We lose the opportunity to compassionately, unconditionally embrace ourselves and others. Simply put, when we apply labels like this, we cut ourselves off from the truth and automatically give the dark greater power than it deserves. Labels are easy, especially within psychic work, and I challenge you, at whatever psychic level you are engaged with, to look beyond the label and begin to open yourself to understanding whatever greater truth might lie in the light and the dark. When we do this, we give ourselves the power of seeing the truth. In grasping this, we give ourselves the opportunity to make an empowered choice. This isn’t necessarily easy, it is courageous, and most of all, it opens the door for you to shed light where once there was only darkness. (Think warrior or warrioress in the halls of your own light and dark)...” Negative Worship and How the Dark Mesmerizes Before I dive into the “9/11 Pattern Repeated” I think it’s worth mentioning a balancing aspect to keeping ourselves in check anytime we are looking at dark source energy dynamics. I am a believer that when we ignore the dark, it gets larger (and eventually bites us in the ass), especially because this is where our wounds are housed. Too heal our wounds (both personal and national) eventually we must peer into the dark, shine light and embrace our wounds in the process of healing. However, and this is a big however, in the process of peering into the dark and looking at the dark, it is incredibly important to not get mesmerized by the dark (something dark source energy entities LOVE to do with us). So, that said, let’s take a look at a pattern that has come up into relief to me this fall that I believe is repeating itself. A Pattern To Be Aware of: The 9/11 Pattern Repeated (by Bob Stovern and Dana Shino) When the twin towers crumbled on September 11, 2001, most of us were so emotionally dumbstruck we had difficulty wrapping our brains around the catastrophe unfurling before our eyes on national television. Few of us questioned anything. Seven years have passed. Given this window of time we can now look more clearly in retrospect at what really occurred. And the truth of the matter is that what was presented to us through the major mass media for us to swallow (hook, line and sinker) and what truly occurred are two different things. For me, without a shadow of a doubt, 9/11 was not an outside terrorism job, but an inside terrorism job used to manipulate us through the emotion of fear. I’m not going to dissect the details of the event here. You can check out these few links as starters, ask yourself questions and decide for yourself: Mystery Plane/CNN Anderson Cooper (Sept. 12, 2007): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SMK5bmdAEHc No windows on flight 175 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jRC4lCQuBmc It was a military plane – That was not American Airlines http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oVH5jm06pJY Bush Caught Lying About 9/11: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sm73wOuPL60 9/11 Clues Everyone Missed: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wwq04_KhCeI 9/11 Coincidences (Part Six): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=em_XyTeNA1g If you want to learn a great deal more, watch Zeitgeist and Addendum at: http://www.zeitgeistmovie.com/ But what I want to talk about is beyond the smoking gun of 9/11, it’s this: What is the overall pattern of 9/11? And why has it been applied to us, the American public and indirectly, the world? Lastly, what is the current pattern in play that resembles 9/11? And who or what is doing this? The Elements of the 9/11 Pattern:
The 9/11 Pattern Applied to the Current Economic Crisis
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